Back in July, on my drive home from youth camp, I was listening to an episode of The Takeaway, when I heard this segment with Farai Chideya about the traumatizing impact of being a foster parent. Listening to the segment made me quite emotional. First, it validated my own experience of being traumatized by the very broken foster care system. And listening I realized that I still have unresolved trauma, despite having received therapy in response to what we experienced as foster parents. Largely this trauma is papered over by the beautiful blessing of our son Sebastian who arrived by other serendipitous means. But every once in a while, usually when someone else is asking about fostering, we open up and share our story and the wounds are made real again. Writing about this will likely be the next major memoir project, but it is not a easy topic to explore.
That afternoon I also read Chideya's essay which had prompted her appearance on The Takeaway. I keep intending to write her and say thank you, as I've also been intending to blog all of this for some time.